Open Heart

Love doesn’t always have to mean to love your significant other. I find the best in people in even if there is thousands of things that are wrong. I always try and be sure that I treat them the best, hoping maybe they will realize and stay.

I have trouble keeping friends around unfortunately. I end up loving people and doing absolutely anything to help them. I would drop anything for even a stranger in need. The problem with that is, people don’t have the same heart as you and won’t do the same in return.

You will love, trust, or give to much just like you are taught growing up. You are taught to teach others with respect, your just never told you might not get any in return. Unfortunately you will always end up the one hurt. In the end, nothing you do for that person will matter when they drop you.

It’s difficult, I have a hard time trusting people because of the sad people who took advantage of my love. Loved your loved ones, keep your family close. They are the people who will always have your back when you fall. God bless.

Kisses, Vita❤️

Media

Somedays I wonder if social media is worth having anymore. Facebook and Twitter to me have been nothing but a competition.

It’s not the sites themselves, it’s the people. Many people have said they wished they could of skipped their twenties and honestly it’s because of the pettiness in social media anymore. People are always trying to compete with each other . People have every right to post about all their great accomplishments in life. There is just one problem, people always want to see you do good but never better than them. Care, support, and love one another. We should all hope that everyone does better in this world.

People aren’t always the nicest on social media, posting who’s fat, who’s not, who’s ugly, who’s pretty. That person that you may be making fun of may have the biggest heart in the world. That person may have medical problems that make them look or act the way they do. Think before you talk because you never know someday what could happen.

Love like there is no tomorrow ❤️

 

Kisses, Vita

Old Friend

To the friend I thought was just like me. I thought we had so much in common. Loved shopping, venting to each other, and getting our daily Starbucks runs. I wanted to explore and do everything with you, including going to a different country together. Then I realized we were complete opposites because I love with all my heart and you dropped me like a hot brick.

To the friend who caused my anxiety and caused me to know what a mental break down is. I never knew what anxiety was until I was promised something wasn’t going to happen to me, that did happen. I was promised it would be a great vacation and I would be cared about, but truthfully everyone else cared except you. Until I realized this friendship was a one way street and you didn’t care about me like I cared about you. Little did you know while i heard you in the room next to me saying you didn’t care where I ate dinner the last night we were away I was having a panic attack on the other end of the door. I was trying so hard to make myself apart of a group that didn’t want me around.

As you say you know, Mental Abuse is no joke. I was mentally abuse by you. Not only did you drop me, but you made friends drop me also. I lost several “friends” from college because you were telling them things so for some reason they thought it was okay to make fun of me too. All the tweets about me, as I sat on the other side of my phone and cried about what you and another were writing. Caused me to have to get help because I never knew what it was like to have a panic attack so bad that I couldn’t breathe for almost 2 hours. You caused this. Worst thing i ever went through.

I texted you and thought everything was going to be okay between us, because i cared about our friendship. You were glaring at me in the airport. Your father stayed by me and made sure I was getting on the plane and your mother was sweet as pie, acting like nothing was wrong. As soon as I upgraded to first class I heard you screaming about me to your family. I got on the plane and cried the whole way home. I couldn’t believe that you were turning against me after coming all that way and caring so much about you. I wouldn’t just waste my graduation present on someone’s wedding if I didn’t care.

I tried to talk to you. Be nice on the text after you asked me what as going on, and I got no response. I think of you often. I even see your mother often. Sad knowing that I knew everything about you and now know nothing. Wishing that you would of gave me that meeting with you that I ask for to actually talk to you about my feelings in person but again you dropped me like a hot brick and didn’t respond. This is all i have to say in one big article because apart of getting over this abuse and healing I have to get it off my chest. Even if you want to continue to post things places, go ahead. Because this is me being done and over this completely.

Kisses, Vita.